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From Crayons to Perfume

There's nothing like a visit home and meeting up with estranged high school friends to make you start analyzing your current status. Not that I'm all that concerned with impressing anyone, but it does make me think about where I started out, what I've been through and how the hell I got here. Truth be told, it's actually making me think more about where I want to go from here.

No, I didn't break into the music business or become a professional photographer. I didn't get a tattoo the way I'd planned to. The closest I got to body piercings was a nose ring that never seemed to heal and was promptly removed once my son was old enough to grab a hold of things and yank. Ouch. I didn't continue to dye my hair with Punky Colors and I pretty much did away with the combat boots and fishnet stockings once I entered the workforce. Well, maybe the boots were a little slower to go.... Bottom line is that reality is far removed from where I'd imagined myself to be over 15 years ago.

Here's the deal, though. I'm okay with all that. Would I kill to quit my job and make my living taking photos? You bet. Do I secretly become a little jealous when unattached (meaning no kids) friends can make plans to travel on a moment's notice? Sometimes. Did I get a little nastalgic for my old concert-going days when my babysitter said she was going to Bonnaroo, a three day music festival? Yeah, maybe a little bit. But you know what, that's okay. Working for the Man and being a single mother of three kids has it's ups and downs, but I'm more self assured and confident than I ever was as a kid/young adult. I still have desires, aspirations and dreams, but they're different now, and they change as I continue to grow as a person.

So where to now, you say? Hell if I know, but I'm going to enjoy the ride.



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